my other side

thought of the day

Written on January 20, 2007 – 3:14 pm | by ruzell-masiglat

someone utter this word to me "ikinukumpara mo yung sarili mo sa kanya?! akala mo ba mas magaling ka sa kanya? wala kang sinabi sa kanya!" that what is on my thought of the day. actually i never did compare myself to her nor to anyone because i know they are much better than i am. i always end up to be the second best that is my expertise i must say. thought of it make my self esteem even lower than before. am i a fool?, yes, i guess i am a fool letting someone said it to me without hesitation and accept it just like that. does it hurt? yes it does hurt my feelings and most especially my ego. thou it happened a long time ago a time like this it still ache as i thought about it, i must admit it. i never complained it to anyone how i really felt that time because i guess that the right thing to do then. besides it is my nature not to complain nor to speak about my feelings. i am used to it, that no one is available when it is my turn to share my stories, thoughts,ideas suggestions and more.  it may seem that i am complaining it to all of you now which is too late but  i am not, i am just letting go of the thought of those words. it may not the good site to elaborate my feelings but i have no other means so just bare with me. anyways it is my blog my space and this is all i have, so deal with it..